ucim wrote:Can you read aloud things you're making up as you go along, in your mind?
EDITED: I don't think I can do that, I think I misinterpreted your question.
OLD REST-OF-THE-POST: I revise things many, many times until they sound good. I also started reading at a very early age, three or four years old, so I think that has something to do with why I'm an outlier in that respect (I mean that as correlation, not causation).
I've been increasingly interested in this as my wife is a consummate mumbler, I hear her subvocalizing as she reads, and I really don't think she can read without doing so. My son isn't nearly as bad as she is, but he does it on occasion too. He, however, appears to have almost no inner monologue. I get that being under 10, some of that might be developmental, but it seems he rarely has a thought he doesn't choose to express aloud. I've found as I've gotten over 30 that subvocalizing while reading increases comprehension, and allows me to better focus on the writing to block out distractions*. I can read 'in my head', including things I'm 'writing' drafting papers of pure thought through a revision or two before I commit them to paper (or screen). I also occasionally hold conversions in my head with characters about their motivations, or insert myself into the story to change a key point, and then watch how the story evolves from there.
I'm going to also say your reading start probably isn't overly significant, as both my wife and I started reading at four, my son as well, and we're all across the spectrum on this.
Personally I've got an over active internal dialogue. There's a half dozen archetypes that I 'talk' with on a regular basis. I've also been known to consult 'memory images' of close friends and family when dealing with things in their area of expertise; my grandmother, passed for over a decade now, often talks me through cooking issues. But I also have childhood memories (again, 4-5 years old) of playing games with Cartoon Characters in the front yard, so my grip on consensual reality was never the strongest to begin with.
And welcome peterdroberts
peterdroberts wrote:Do you understand the constant frustration of feeling something one month and only being able to express it the next month, when you are carefree and chatty?
No, having never felt it I don't understand it. But I can accept it once I know it's a thing. I find that, in the next month when I'm carefree and chatty, I no longer remember the feeling from the previous month, so cannot express it. Do you remember it well enough to do so? That would be a gift if it could be channeled (i.e. into creative writing or music).
And I do know what you mean peterdroberts, though I'm not diagnosed bipolar myself. My swings have never been as severe as yours sound, but yeah, when you're up you're up, and when you're down you're down, and trying to explain to someone why you're there, or even what it was like when you weren't there... the words just don't exist in any language I've ever known.
EDIT: *As an aside, when I say distractions I mean I've always had a hard time not 'hearing' everything in earshot. Last night at dinner I mistakenly commented on something the party 4 tables over was discussing, and everyone looked at me like I was crazy. Crazier. than normal. anyways. Sometimes there's just to many input streams, and hearing what I'm reading while I'm reading it helps focus the data.